My midnights have been terrorizing
For years, wretched thoughts tarrying
They said you’ll fall if you stare too long
That’s why I love my ceiling lifelong
I am feeling weary during the mornings
“I will slumber tonight” says I while yawning
Hah! How foolish of me to think such,
My eyes are wide open, the insides I can touch. So…
With all the hidden fears that keeps haunting,
You already know they keep my eyes from closing
Why is it have to be you adding a burden?
Now, my heart will be forever lost in this dungeon
Look at me while I stare at your eyes
Can you still see through them, the clear blue skies?
The universe with the sun and its glittering stars?
Or is it something you left? A memoir
Listen to my voice while with you, I laugh
Do I still sound me? Do I still do it like a riffraff?
Is this the sound of genuineness to you?
I only imitate yours like a cockatoo
Observe. Do you still hear me singing?
While touching your cheeks and lovingly smiling
Do I still take pride in the songs I sing?
Yes, I hum, but they are merely no-nothings
Watch me closely and kindly tell me
Do you still see the old me, caressing you willingly?
How can you be so coldhearted and numb?
How can I be so wholehearted and dumb?
Unknown Musings 